2009-03-21 - 1:19 p.m.
so today - it happened... no more wondering or worrying... it came to an end. basically the fight started over somthing to do with my humility or lack there of. I should feel happy if worked in a coffee shop because I dont have any other skills or abilities - so I should just accept that. supposidly, my life has been easy, I have always had money and I have never gone without a day in my life. and did you know that my parents support me?? I never knew any of this, I'm so glad he informed me then promptly broke up with me. my momma said he will be back. my parents always say that - theyre usually right when they do say it. I ask them how they know = they just say they couldnt have anyone better than you, awwww. I'm not going to take him back, as painful as it seems. my fear of the unknown is the only thing that drives me back to him. erin started to cry when I told her all this shit, she doesnt get why i am still with him. How could i take him back? he took a look at me, our relationship and said - no thanks, I will try my luck elsewhere. if that doesnt hurt, I dont know what does. I havent been able to trust him for the past few months, sometimes I cry myself to sleep over it. he says thats my insecurity. but, who gets in such lame fights? its almost like it was preplanned. anywhore... Im going to spend my day reading self help books and watching insperational love movies that surround break ups- ie: the break-up, the holiday, when harry met sally and so on. the night will come and that is the shittiest time to feel alone...
