2004-08-01 - 4:56 p.m.
It's been awhile, I know. I am starting to focus more on work, than partying. Michelle is back in town, she is all cute and skinny. I like knowing she's here, there is some sort of weird comfort in that. I wish Chrissy would come back too, it's like being snuggled up in a soft pink blanket. Eric has a new girlfriend, and it's impossible to hang out with him anymore. I haven't hung out with him in weeks. I try and phone him but he is always busy with her. It's not fair. I was at Shannon the other night, drinking cheap merlot (go figure,) and I burst into tears. I remembered the first time I told Eric I loved him. We were sitting in his broken down Toyota, on his side yard, and I wrote it in the fog on his window. I don't know why, but that just hurt me to no avail. I love Eric, and I wish I could love him that way again, but I can't. I need him in my life though, he is so important to me. No one knows me like he does .....I've never felt a greatter connection to anyone. He's my favorite.
