2003-10-17 - 3:55 p.m.
have you ever noticed that when you are scared of things, you are least likely to write them down. This whole FUTURE thing is making me shit my pants. I don't want to throw baskets of make-up at Eric (though I do admit that I am becoming increasingly more violent with him.) There is something about hurting people that gives me so much pleasure. i think I might want to go see someone about that. nevertheless, this moving out crap is scary.........yes, i have a good job.....but not a stable income. I have always dreamt that when I moved out I would have all these lovely possesions. nice couches, fresh flowers every week. eric wants to make this place into some sort of boys nest, i'm not to down for that. i like things pretty.
