2004-02-10 - 8:13 p.m.
Life is far to akward... this is the first time I haven't been go go go in awhile. My life is always moving, because when I stop to think, I have to deal with emotions, and everyone knows, emotions are a bitch. I get jumpy when I haven't had a drink, it's like I haven't had my fix. I can feel it flowing through my veins right now. This life style is starting to catch up with me, but I can never sit still. I love people, I loth being alone. I can't deal with myself alone, I don't know what to think, how to act, what to do. I am going to have chill nights....tommorow night....i will work, thursday .....hang out with pp......friday, party party party. I hope Erin comes out with me. Despite what she might think, I don't want her to come out so she makes an ass of herself.... I want her to come out because I love her and enjoy her company, nothing more...nothing less. I think we would have an awesome time together....the two of us, out having fun....nothing brings a bigger smile to my face.
