2003-04-06 - 2:27 p.m.
For the past little while, Al has not been speaking to me. He was going around to everyone saying shit about me, I didn't know what his problem was. He saying all this shit to Colin, Caleb and everyone else, and of course they told me. I was sick of it so I finally called him. He went off about how I told him he was forgetting who his friends where when he started going out with Nicole (which is true.) Anyway, we solved are differences. But somehow, I'm still not satisfied. He was screwing around with Sarrah, and Brandon doesn't even know. The other night, Brandon was pouring out his heart to him about Sarrah, then Al's phone rings, and Al gets up right in the middle of his sentence. I couldn't believe it. Brandon knows he's an ass, so does everyone else. We had this huge convo about it yesterday. But still, I can't imagine what Brandon would do if he knew what happened between Al and Sarrah. Al's girlfriend has another boyfriend. Brandon doesn't want to tell him because, " Al is his friend and he doesn't want to hurt him." He was going on and on about if Sarrah had cheated on him, he would expect his friends to tell him. I wish I could tell Al. I wish I could tell Brandon. I can't, I won't and I have to leave it at that. But am I a bad friend for not telling them? Or would it better for them not to know the truth? Why are Counting Crows always so comforting during these akward, confussing times? There songs make me want to go out and start shooting people, and I thought Eminem is supposed to make you do that.
